up above the world so high!

2007-04-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

2007-01-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

Are we happy plastic people

Under shiny plastic steeples

With walls around our weakness

And smiles to hide our pain

But if the invitation's open

To every heart that has been broken

Maybe then we close the curtain

On our stained glass masquerade

-stained glass masquerade by casting crowns. havent really listened to it but the lyrics are damn meaningful please. well maybe cause it just.. applies

"when the teacher makes a joke or whatever, just look around and see who's not laughing" and you'll know and dont know at the same time.
why does god do this to people. why not just make everyone out of 1000% happiness.

i dont know what else to say now. just that things have been really screwy and fucking emo. (im not talking about me btw) or maybe it was just today
i never ever ever E.V.E.R thought that i'd cry in front of my dad. but like corrinne may was playing in the car which reminded me of joy.[ I HAVE NO IDEA WHY] then thinking about joy made me think about what we talked about and all.

thankyoujoy (: & [your welcome] HAHA. P.S we're not done talking yet! this is not gonna be one of those other cases. if you know what i mean. heh
and cheer up kat! kick the wall and scream in your pillow and slam the doors.. IM SERIOUS. hahah

2007-01-12T18:51:00.000+08:00

i think studying makes one a super boring person
not that i've been studying or anything, i've just been thinking and planning to study A LOT and already, its drawing me toward being an extremely quiet and antisocial person. aka dweeb minus the brains.

dweeb |dwēb| noun informal
a boring, studious, or socially inept person.

ohno ohno ohno ohno ohno
i was just about to say i'll just make this whole being a dweeb thing temporary till after the O's (that way i'll do goood :D ),
but SOME CHANGES ARE IRREVERSIBLE OKAY

~~I MISS BEING STUPID BLUR LAME AND WHATEVER I WAS WHEN I WAS FAILING LIT. eh wait, i still fail lit.~~

gawd you must think im a reaaaally weird person now.
fyi, dweebs ARE weird.

SIGH ):

on a lighter note, UK TRIP IN JUNE! :D though im not really a lit person. but whatever, I'LL GET INSPIRED TO DO LIT. (?)

2007-01-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

FINALLY THE WEEKENDS. whooot

the last two days = boringshiat.
today was alright
so i was supposed to get that interactive geog textbook after school for the geog test next week, go home and STUDY. BUT i somehow ended up in town with lynette & steph. walked around for a bit and had what-felt-like the longest lunch ever (AIYOOHH, lynette ah!) hahah. oh and we met the last people i thought i would meet in town- cass & jon. yeaaah shock man.
THEN it was starbucks with ant (: AND TUITION. which totally spoiled my day. gah whatever

sorry for being THE 06bitch
im getting my retribution now
hope you~~'re happy..~~
FUCKOFF&DIEEEEEEEE!

go on and continue misunderstanding everything, please
cause no one's gonna bother explaining it to you

URRRGH

BYE.

2007-01-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

ONCE UPON A TIME.

2006-12-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

I AM VERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERY TIRED NOW.
my fingers have no energy.

so
just wanted to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIC! <3

and uh happy new year in advance?
NO I DONT WANT 2007 TO COME DAMMIT.

2006-12-23T23:17:00.000+08:00

night at the museum's hilarious.
I LOVE THE EASTER ISLAND HEAD! and how he wanted gumgum from the dumdum.
AHHH. total cutenesss :D

spent the wholeeee day at greatworld christmas shopping with my mum. oh the joy of buying things :D got christmas presents for people and stuff for my room etc etc etc.

I FEEL GOOD tadatadatadata
i knew that i would tadatadatadata
i feel nice, like sugar and spice tadatadatadata
so nice, so nice, i got you
DUM DUM DUM..DUM!

its a song you dumbass ;D

2006-12-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont i dont !

N-O
nuh-uh
nooooooooooo

sigh, there's just so much more to it.
no scratch that. there's just so much more to everyfuckingthing.
i've screwed up so much this year it hurts.
and its not just one thing.

anyway towned for abit with nic& kat today and with sarah yesterday
a good getaway from everything i must say. hah

2006-12-20T14:57:00.000+08:00

IM BACK! thailand was sooopuuuurrrrb :D it was as good as the states. honest! went to siam paragon on the first day and then we went to see FIREFLIES at night. omg fireflies are love. though the boat ride got a bit boring toward the end. im still thanking god for my ipod.

oh oh and i saw beatrice in siam paragon! whatasmallworld.

drove up to chengmai and took a plane back to bk. rode up the mountains in little motorbike thingys or what they call A.T.Vs . its exactly like a motorbike but it has four wheels and really good suspension. & although the riders have to be above 16, my brothers and i got to ride our own bikes. then there was rafting. that was fun too. then we went to this farm. milked a cow&made our own ice cream :D hahahahha spent another two days SHOPPING in bk before home.

and will everyone who's overseas COME BACK SOON! graaaaaah ]:

now playing: i wrote this song by making april.
honestly by cartel
second chances by october fall
show me the money by petey pabloe (step up soundtrack)
imma shine ny youngbloodz (step up soundtrack)
step up by samantha jade (step up soundtrack)

the last three songs makes you wanna dance and jump around on the bed. AHH i like! niggermusic aint that baad actually :D

2006-12-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

you know what i reaaally need now?
for things to go back to normal, the way it used to be

man, wtf is wrong with me

2006-12-08T14:04:00.000+08:00

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

try that.
it was like 99.99% true for me.

2006-12-07T18:57:00.000+08:00

have fun in whistler/vancouver ant. not gonna see you for a nong nong noooong time AND i still havent gotten over the fact that i havent passed you your presents from the states & you havent lent me shall we dance& oth & i havent given you back your friends season & i forgot to ask you for belinda's number cause FYI i lost my phone=i lost all my contacts & I WAS SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING & gosh JUST COME BACK SOON.

HAVE FUN IN LONDON CHRIS. I LL MISS YOUU TOO.
HAVE FUN IN WHISTLER TOO MRISSA. YOU LL BE MISSED. though it feels like i havent talked to you in a reaaaally long time. catch up when you come back aight!
HAVE FUN IN KOREA ALYSSA.
HAVE FUN IN SHANGHAI RYAN

TAKE CARE YOU GUYS

OHWEEEELL. good thing im going to TAAAAAI-LAND :D 13th to 19th. yay. i hope the movies havent changed on the plane cause i havent finished watching pirates of the carribean2 and you,me and dupree. even though i had like what, 36hours on the plane? hahah
ANYWAY, I CAN FINALLY WALK. the stupid blister's finally healing. i feel like playing freeze&melt again. hahah maybe thats what i'll do for my next birthday. just have a party at a void deck or sth and play CATCHING?

some of the pictures from the states. since i've got nothing better to do now.

this was damn cool, its like supposed to be part of a tree trunk with like lots of animals stuck to it i guess

reallyreally cute glasses to wear for some 4D show with bugs in it. DAMN GROCE

the mentally retarded

sunrise! great view from the room. check out the mist

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG :D AND this was like half the shop

train station

my personal favourite

2006-12-04T18:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY DAYNA AND GRANVILLE

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEWY/CHARMAINE!

okay anyway my phone's in use again :D dad got the sim card and my mum lent me her thai phone. at least the phone doesnt look like its form WW2 or something. hahah BUT all my contacts are gone. baaaaaah

today. left training early for chewy's suprise party! which was at holy spirit. her church ppl and us started decorating the place etc. played freeze and melt, whacko all. which reminds me,

NEVER PLAY FREEZE AND MELT BAREFOOT!

OUCH , iknow. that's after the mini-operation i had in my room. (it looked alot worse than that before i took out all the dead skin. PAIN I TELL YOU.

sigh chinese tuition now. I HATE CHINESE I HATE CHINESE I HATE CHINESEEEE!

2006-12-01T16:19:00.000+08:00

2006-12-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

i said it once & i'll say it again
eyelash wishes do come true.

it's like my 4th one!

Step0. wait for eyelash to drop
Step1. pick up eyelash from face
Step2. close your eyes and wish for something reasonable
Step3. blow the eyelash off your finger
Step4. wait

yay me i guess. anyways, im getting reaaal sleepy now. i want my stupid jetlag to go awaay. i ve been sleeping from 4-6ish and waking up at like 4 in the morning with nothing to do for the past four days. i even tried staying awake till 11pm last night but i still woke up at 4am. oh and the only reason why i was up that late was cause i had tuition. ANYWAY i made breakfast with my dad this morning & it was damn funny i tell you. the whole kitchen was messed bigtime.

2006-11-29T16:42:00.000+08:00

i need cip hours & normality pronto
urgh this is killing me.

2006-11-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

slept at 2 in the afternoon yesterday while watching OTH and gareth woke me up at 1 in the morning. so we continued with OTH till now. welcome to my boring life revolving around my bed,tv and brother.

that apart, i feel so filled up with empty spaces ):
and that feeling's coming back again. the regret, inferiority, loneliness(?), fear and basically regret. but you know what? im not gonna let it get to me. not anymore. but damn, sometimes trying isnt good enough.

so i was thinking of going for mass everyday. any volunteers? haha

2006-11-28T11:15:00.000+08:00

WHASSUP WORLD! IM BACK. after disappearing for two whole weeks. i missed my bed and everyone here A HELL LOT.
BUT THEN AGAIN, newyork's like DAMN NICE TO SHOP IN. the stuff there are like soooooooo RAD i swear.
disney and universal studios were great. the rides there are like, woaaah. damn shiok. esp those hanging roller coasters and OHYES tower of terror! AND there's this rollercoaster which goes BOTH backwards and forwards IN THE DARK.

ANYWAY pictures later!

ohyes and FRET NOT cause i got lotsacaaandyyy! & bubble&chewingGUM. and jellybeans too. actually its not that much now cause my brothers and i ate most of it on the plane. hoho.
&&& guess what! i FINALLY got onetreehill season1. it was on sale, from 59.99 to 19.99 us dollars. like whoot man.

im off to one tree hill.
TA TA.

2006-11-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

OMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMIGOOSSSHHH!
i feel oh so very YAY-ISHY today

BEEEECAUSE- imleavingtmrimleavingtmrimleavingtmrimleavingtmr!
florida & newyork baby here i come (:

BYE SCHOOL
BYE EMATHS TEST
BYE TRAINING
BYE WAKING-UP-AT-745AM
&! BYE ROTTING AT HOME DOING NOTHING.

AND, im gonna be 39408190817610985694869miles more closer to steven strait and channing tatum! hohohohoho. we're gonna be like, in the SAME CONTINENT MAN :D

>

2006-11-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

dont bother reading. you wont understand.

god listens. he fcuking does!
you know, it's weird but i used to make many many bargains with God last time. the bargains being somewhere along the line of wishing for something in exchange for something i already had? normal people would just wish for whatever they wanted, but whenever i wished for something.. i'd like throw in a sacrifice- another something i was willing to give up to 'substitude' for what i wanted. and these were NEVER deliberate mind you, they would just somehow appear in my mind. maybe cause throwing in the 'sacrifices' made me unconciously think that there'd be a higher chance of that wish coming true. i mean everything has balance doesnt it? like if you breath in, you'd definately have to breath out. sth that goes up has to come down. ohwait, scratch that, sth that goes up has to come down cos of gravity. OK anyway, so if i wanna gain something, i'd have to lose something else. WELL that's what i thought la. hence the whole coming up with 'sacrifices' i guess. ANYWAAAY, these wishes that i made? THEY'RE COMING TRUE. more like they came true already. fuuuuck. great friendships or good results? skinny and anti-social or fat and sociable? screwy relationships with famiy & great relationships with friends or the other way round?

omg. I MUST BE A REALLY WEIRD PERSON. =/

2006-11-07T19:41:00.000+08:00

HMMM. subway with cherylw, shir, tricia, cathy, evil, vic& charmaine was the funnest today (: taaalked and taaalked for about an hour before our butts ached. training again tmr, yay me.

2006-11-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

TAFNIGGUFMI ! >:(

i brought gabriel for mass. i wonder if i looked like his mum. you know, there was this time gabriel brought his friends over and his friends saw me watching tv in the room and thought i was his mom. like what the fishballs?! YEAH I KNOW. so we planned to go shopping after mass (yes, me and gabriel) but we ended up going home causes i refused to lend him money to buy his vans. =/

oh oh and i soooo paid attention during mass today. God's prouda me and i know it :D

anyway the rest of the day was just spent with my bed, princess hours, and filletohfish and fries with sweet chilli.

2006-11-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

sweat it out

i'm insane. i just ran and did footwork outside my house.
but it aint making me any faster.

i miss being skinny like fuck
hunger strikes never seem to work now
FIND ME A NEW WAY
i dont care if my life gets shortened or whatever
JUST FIND ME A WAY

P.S I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK
but i lie.

2006-11-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

CHECK THIS OUT,
I NEVER KNEW MY BROTHER WAS THAT SELF-OBSESSIVE!
HAHAHAHHAHAAHA
pure entertainment seriously.

ESP THIS ONE! ROFL.

REEEEVEEENGE IS SWEEET.
HOHOHO.

but i feel mean.

2006-11-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

THERES SCHOOL TMR. seven am AGAIN.
LETS ALL GO ON A HUNGER STRIKE.
(like that'll ever happen.)

today was just school, training.. same ol stuff. then UNCLE ANTONIA came over and we went f'mass =O hahhahaha i'll upload the picture of uncle antonia when i find it. DAMNFUNNY! but no one saw cause no one was online. sad. and just for the record, i still hate training. and ~~school~~ having lessons DURING THE HOLS. but then again, who doesnt.

P.S the running plan didnt really work out.sigh come to think of it, IT NEVER DOES! =/

2006-10-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOUG! (:

you've gotta admit, family outings are the boringest.

the prestige=BESTSHOWEVER.

I CANT WAIT FOR THE FIRST WEEK OF NOVEMBER.parents'll be away :D
okay i feel really guilty rejoicing over their leaving.

gave the parties at ryan's and doug's a miss cause of a gazillion reasons, tuition, mum, dad and whatnot. quite a bummer actually, no drinks. haha okay now i sound like some alcoholic.

I AM GOING TO GO RUNNING TWICE A DAY FROM TMR ONWARDS.
YES I WILL.

2006-10-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

ICANTSTANDITANYMORE. urrrgh.
shouting & screaming & complaining & crying aint the only mode of communication here hello?
go find your own wall.

2006-10-26T19:32:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARISSA LYN NATASHA CHIA ! ILOVEYOUTOOOONNNS <3

report books back & im impressed with myself for the amt of effort i put in. ~~but sometimes, it isnt exactly good doing 'well'. its like people who do well just make people who didnt do that well feel worse?~~ i dont know la. fcuk exams.

URRRRRRGGGHHHHHH.
its been a rather antisocial week for me.
dont ask. just one of those monthly mood swings
ANYWAY moodswinging's officially over as of today :D

marissa's right.
IM FCUKING DISPLACED! ):

I NEED A HAIRCUT
AND I NEED TO MAKE MY IC!
ITS BEEN DUE SINCE JUNE!
WOAH, 4MONTHS LATE.

what's the cure for having an extremely paranoid dad?

2006-10-26T19:32:00.000+08:00

2006-10-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

I LOVE ANTONIA.
SHE'S THE BEST IN THE WORLD.
REALLY, THE BEST.
I LOVE HER SO SO SOOOO MUCH.

2006-10-22T17:20:00.000+08:00

HELLO

2006-10-18T00:22:00.000+08:00

"THE QUICKEST WAY TO RUIN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE IS TO ACTUALLY TRY TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM."

AGREED.

2006-10-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

so those occupied my whole evening. i wanna watch more chick flicks! even if they're all brainless and cheesy, they always have happy endings.& I LIKE HAPPY ENDINGS. anyway i just feel a lot better now, after all the tears and laughter. STUPID BUS THIRD. GRAAH.talk about having mixed feelings

2006-10-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

i dont know why,
but when i woke up this morning
i felt like a paperweight
everything's all tangled up again

cherylwong's house is huge with an unlimited supply of milo
I WOULDNT MIND LIVING IN A PLACE LIKE THAT MAN

anyway i miss ballet and playing the piano now ):

2006-10-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

i wish it was still fucking MAY

i guess great times come with bad times
there probably has to be that balance
yeah sure, i understand
just get through the bad times and the good's soon to come
only a matter of time right?

what bullcrap.
everyone's waited long enough dammit.
patience they say?
eff the excuses.

why couldnt God just make us all happy people

i'm sorry
i thought ignorance was bliss.

2006-10-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

thanks(:

HOPE may seem like the only thing you have left. but trust me, it'll only delay the time when reality comes crashing down. and maybe even cause it to crash down even harder. and

ok this was supposed to be one of those really long posts BUT, not today. im beat and there's just too much on my mind. its amazing how a brain so small can carry out sooo much thinking and keep information so big. dont get me wrong, im not saying my brain is small! but well i dont know, i just think too much. man this is driving me crazzzzy.

2006-10-12T09:09:00.000+08:00

SIGH THERES SOME PROBLEM WITH THE FREAKING INTERNET AT HOME! and only the modem thats connected to my brother's com is working? so i can only go online when hes not using the com. sucks man.
anyway dental yesterday, came back home while ant &rahh got their manicure. then was over at rahhs house, watched that korean drama with dennis o'neil in it ! its actually quite boring except for the parts where dennis comes in! hah hah.
anyway i've just realised how empty life can get without the internet & com. it's like theres nothing to do at home! at all. besides flipping through channels and playing the sims2, and eating. geez.

I LL FIX IT!
but the question is HOW?

anyway i was clearing my stuff and guess what i found! HAHAHAHA LAVANIA, LAVANIA.

2006-10-10T11:51:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING TUESDAY! slept at like three and i woke up at ten. I WANT TO SLEEP MORE. maybe later. AND I CANT GO OUT TODAY LA BLOODY HELL!??! just because my mum's gonna be home for the whole day. go figure! like what has her being home got anything to do with my going out !!! arrrgh. I WANT TO WATCH DENNIS O'NEIL AT SARAH'S! I WANT TO GO SHOPPING WITH ANT AND RAHH. I DONT WANT TO STAY HOME. NOOOOOOOO.

2006-10-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

1030PM
so i'm all alone sitting in front of the tv on my parents bed in my parents room watching america's next top model with the macbook on my lap :D eating grapes.while gareth and gabriel are studying in THEIR room,
peace and quiet.

THIS IS THE LIFE MAN.

todays headline- rene sprained his neck muscle while STRETCHING during his exam. HAHAHAHHAHAHHA ok sorry i just find that so damn funny, seriously! i was like some idiot laughing at the com for quite some time.

1AM

okay i cant sleep. WELL, today was pretty much fun. exam ended, watched stay alive ( cos john tucker must die was sold out, I WANT TO WATCH JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE ) with the FELLOW LOSERS. haha omg they're seriosly ther losers of the losers! need i say more. hahaah saw many people. anyway everyone's asleep now and im all alone in my room. IM SCAREEEDDD. what if the mirror in my room suddenly breaks, or a sudden thumping sound coming from my cupboard, or i suddenly hear the loud, vibrating sound that is heard whenever someone's gonna die in 'stay alive', or the light suddenly switches off..and the women psycho freak comes in and kills me! OMG I DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE. AHHHHHHHHH IM STARTING TO REGRET, WE SHOULDNT HAVE WATCHED STAY ALIVE AT ALL. okok STOP THINKING ABOUT IT ALREADY. i wonder if anyone else's awake now. HELLOOOO? WORLDDDD? YOU THERE?

OH I'VE FOUND SARAH TO TALK TO.yay
AND,
DENNIS JOSEPH O'NEIL IS theLOVEEEE!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKDipDlHeok&NR

im soooooo going so rahh's house a nine in the morning tmr to watch sweety spy. dennis o'neil's in it! :D hahhaa korean dramas here we come!

2006-10-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

2006-10-09T10:10:00.000+08:00

Hello Germaine. I've come to post again cause I'm so sick of doing math. And I'm really scared for tomorrow but I can't wait. (: Sleepovers and all! (: Tomorrow at 1 o'clock we'd be free from all the stress till we get back our results. The PSI is damn high and let's all hope that we won't have that extra three weeks of lesson. (: But what are the chances. I'm bored. Oh don't blame yourself for what has happened. It's really not your fault alright. Okay I shall go Mug Math if it's even possible.
Tomorrow.
27 hours.
1620 minutes.
97200 seconds.

Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
lol u know my tuition teacher wore a mask
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
then he walked past GOH chok tongs house
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
then stare
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
then the guard turned off his guns safety
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
like getting ready to shoot
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
then he ran away
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
then when he came my house
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
he said
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
im gonna do it again
Ps 7 offical members and counting.... NEED MORE MEMBERS..HARDCORE GAMERS ONLY says:
so fun

I'M SORRY GERMS. I WAS VERY VERY BORED. HEH

2006-10-08T21:29:00.001+08:00

i feel so awake now. slept for about four to five hours straight while doing amaths questions. damn. maybe i should burn the midnight oil tonight, faint during assembly and skip amaths and chinese exam. sound familiar? haha. in that way, i ll have more time to prepare for amaths on tuesday. HAH. but then again, freedom would be an extra day away.

2006-10-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

2006-10-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

WILL YOU PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER? IF YOU HAVENT NOTICED, YOU RE SINKING IN DEEPER AND DEEPER. I MIGHT NOT KNOW HOW IT FEELS AND ALL AND YOU MUST BE THINKING HOW EASY IT IS FOR ME TO JUST SAY ALL THESE WHEN I'VE NEVER EVEN BEEN THROUGH ANYTHING AS FUCKED UP AS WHAT YOU RE GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW. BUT CANT YOU SEE THAT WHATEVER YOU RE DOING AINT HELPING?! FIND A NEW WAY OF GETTING IT OFF!AND I KNOW HOW UNCARING, THOUGHTLESS, UNAWARE, SELFISH, UNCONCERNED ETC I'VE BEEN THIS YEAR. FUCK, I DONT WANT TO BE THAT PERSON. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT MADE ME LIKE THAT FOR THE LAST FEW MONTHS BUT PLEASE, GET YOURSELF OUT OF THIS AND SHOW THEM. I KNOW IM IN NO POSITION TO TELL YOU ALL THIS BULLCRAP. WHICH IS WHY IM NOT SAYING THIS TO YOU. AND IM ACTUALLY HOPING THAT YOU WONT CHANCE UPON THIS. ANYWAY IM SORRY FOR NOT REACHING OUT. AND IM SORRY I TRIED SO HARD IN THE BEGINNING. IM SORRY FOR BEING SO FUCKING FICKLE. I DONT EVEN KNOW IF THE PERSON I KNEW AND THOUGHT I WAS CLOSE TO IN THE PAST WAS ACTUALLY YOU OR YOUR FACADE. COS ACTUALLY, I KINDA KNEW EVERYTHING WAS NOT OKAY. I JUST DIDNT WANT TO BELIEVE IT. I WAS SCARED OF BEING PART OF IT ALL. I DIDNT KNOW IF I COULD TAKE IT AND HELP YOU, OR JUST MAKE YOUR LIFE WORSE. AND THERE'RE A THOUSAND AND ONE MORE REASONS THAN THAT BUT ARGH BUT THATS NOT THE POINT.

SHOULD I LET GO?
i shouldnt right. i'd be fucking selfish then. but if i dont, what if i make things worse than it already is? what if im not up to it?

2006-10-06T21:25:00.000+08:00

ONLY AMATHS LEFT BAYBEHH! and chinese.
whoooooooooooooooo.
then there's NO SCHOOL FOR THE REST OF NEXT WEEK

btw, THE PREVIOUS POST WAS WRITTEN BY ANTONIA TAN MING HUI. though i edited it a little. heh. only the bold words. hahah

anyhows, im just glad today's over. CHEM AND GEOG LA. for something which i hardly studied for, chem was fine :D GEOG=MAJORLY SCREWED fullstop. oh and i hardly studied on the day before (actually, i hardly studied at all) so im kinda prepared to fail. FAILLLL.
so i was at united sq with ant and rah, nothing constructive. went back home and watched teevee. THAT REMINDS ME, was watching the chinese 9clock show, and it was damn funny. hahahah like after it ended.. my dad was like saying how the scripwriters, compared to shows like prison break ,had no creatitivity and he started imitating the guy chasing after shuyang. HILARIOUS I TELL YOU. hahaha "SHUYANG! SHUYANG!" with his hands going up and down.. then there was his facial expression. then dont know what happened, gabriel started to do it and my grandfather also. laughed till my tummy hurt. ANYWAY, talking about the 9clock show, I LIKE THE ENDING. so sweet :D

2006-10-06T15:31:00.000+08:00

HELLO. HELLO. HELLO.
I SUCK. AND I WILL FAIL CHEM AND DO WORSE THAN SARAH AND ANTONIA FOR EVERYTHING! :D AND I LOVE Js. 11TH OF NOVEMBER! I CAN'T WAIT. IT'LL BE A VERY NICE DAY CAUSE I'LL BE WITH RAH AND ANT ~~AND AHEM~~ THE WHOLEEEEE DAY(: GETTING HIGH CAUSE I'D SEE SOMEONE/SOMETHING? BUTTT IT'LL ONLY LAST ONE DAY CAUSE I HAVE TO GO AWAY. I'M GONNA BE SAD CAUSE I WON'T BE ABLE TO SPEND ENOUGH TIME WITH ANTONIA TAN MING HUI. AND I THINK SARAH LIKES SOMEONE. NOW, SHE LIKES _s. (: I KNOW EVERYONES SECRETS. ALL THE JUICY GOSSIP. I'M GOING TO MISS ANT AND ONLY ANT CAUSE I LOVE HER SO SO SOOOOO MUCH (: AND I'LL MISS SARAH TOO OF COURSE (CAUSE I DON'T WANNA HURT HER FEELINGS)

2006-10-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

I WANNA TRAVEL IN A TIME MACHINE ):

screw geog, chem and lit.
if ony people like shakespeare, marian chong and avogrado didnt exist.
WOULD'VE SAVED ME A WHOLE LOTA TROUBLE STRESSING.

2006-10-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

ss and chinese tmr.
i feel so unprepared. & here i am, hogging the com
I WISH IT WAS THE 9TH OF OCTOBER ALREADY
no, actually, i would already be happy if it were the FIFTH
I HOPE I GET THROUGH THIS
anyways, was supposed to go for the carnival but when i asked my dad this morning, he was all 'you should be studying instead of wasting your time on all these, just one more day. you can do whatever you want afteer the exams and blahblahblah. shant bore you with the details.
so i was home for the WHOLE DAY. i wouldnt exactly call it hardcore studying ): dang. okayokay. STUDY NOW. and four thirty am tmr

i think planning and FOLLOWING the plan would have done the trick.

2006-09-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

ohgoood. like, what's up with this obsession everyone has about studying?
WHATS THE POINT
is it really worth it? - having your world revolve around textbooks, formulas, table and chair
&all this for having a great future, getting a good job, money etc.

who knows whats gonna become of the world that we're living now 30-40 years from now anyway
what if like a war breaks out (touchwood)
or men find out that we're actually living in some artificial reality like the matrix,
or like the world ends (TOUCHWOOD)
or if the north&south pole melt , flooding everywhere and there's noah wouldnt let you in his arc, making sure that you drown with all the others

would knowing that F=MA or no. of moles= volume X concentration help at all?
NO.

so if any of the above really happens, (TOUCHWOOD) might as well make the most of what we're doing now. & making the most of what we're doing now is ≠ studying . nuh-uh.

and if the above dont happen, then god bless those who never studied when they were younger. haha but then again! whats the most that could happen if you dont study? there's nth wrong with cleaning toilets, they even have a course for toilet cleaning in ITE i think. hhahaha im not saying that i like to clean toilets, it's just that you'll live a harder life next time. period.
actually, even IF you study now, you'd still live a hard life next time, maybe even harder cos of the workload and stress and whatnot.

ANYWAY, my point IS
scratch studying!
it's definately not gonna get you far in life.
i mean come on, EVERYONE'S studying.
to get far in life, you've gotta be different
you've gotta stand out.
BUT, if you wanna stand out, you've gotta be smart
to be smart, you've gotta have proof
proof=good grades=study.

OH MAN
I CONTRADICT MYSELF SO MUCH, i swear

2006-09-26T19:33:00.000+08:00

ENGLISH WAS TODAY. MY PAPER ONE IS SO SCREWED. AH. AND I SHOULD BE FREAKING STUDYING NOW BUT MY MOOD'S SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOOOOW. IM BORED IM BORED IM BOREDD.

HANDS DOWN BY DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL.

Mes espoirs sont si hauts que votre baiser pourrait me tuer.
Ainsi vous ne me tuerez pas, ainsi je meurs heureux.

2006-09-25T17:52:00.000+08:00

2006-09-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

the hell song - sum41

today was boring
woke up at sevenish, went to ant's house
did amaths tuition homework
then amaths tuition
went home while sarah and ant went to christang's place
i asked my dad again but he still didnt allow.
so i was home for the whole day
doing everything and anything BUT study.
6'oclock mass
dinner

yep, IT WAS THAT BORING.

FALALALALALALALALA
BLAHBLAHBLAH
MAHFAHYAHDAHDAH
YAAAAAAAAH
WAHWAHLAHKAH
BAHYAH

2006-09-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

imboredddd. i was watching the 9 o'clock show, the drama series that they always show on channel 8? well IT IMPROVES MY CHINESE OKAY. so anyway, like the girl's guy best friend proposed to her, but she likes this other guy. so she didnt know what to say when her guy best friend proposed and AT THAT EXACT MOMENT, the guy that she liked ran to her and held her hand and they both just ran. :DDD SO SWEET RIGHT! i feel so happy. hahaha ohman, i should be like studying now.

2006-09-22T17:58:00.000+08:00

ZOMGGGG. it's official. IM TURNING INTO A BULGING BLOB OF BLUBBER,
HUGE LUMP OF FAT.
):

BAHHHHHH.

2006-09-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

YAY. and i shall go for audrey,jaimie,geraldine,tessa and whoever else is in that church's confirmation :D hahahaha. icantwaaait. i shall get flowers for them. one CAULI flower each (cos brocollis were so yesterday) . ohman, i just cant seem to get over that joke can i? hahah anyhowws, studied at delifrance with ant and sarahh. and chinese tuition's at 730. TWO WHOLE HOURS. i hope i ll survive.

throw it away
forget yesterday;
watch it burn
and let it die

yeah, i think people do change, alot
dang.

im not gonna listen to any of hat SPOOOOFID classical music anymore! hahahahhaa i heard classical music helps you get into that studying mood, so i thought listening to it on a daily basis would help. but nooooo, it just had to bring back all the memories. hahahaha you know how certain songs remind you of certain stuff? yeah la. totally got me distracted. AND THEN THERE WAS THAT DREAAAAAM. gosh. talk about doing things for the wrong reasons. anyway WE RE ALL OVER THAT ALREADY ARENT WE!

I NEED TO STUDAYE.
i couldnt seem to get all those atmosphere and environment shit into the thick skull of mine.
so there.

and i bet half the people that read my posts dont get half of what im talking about.

their loss. haha
and i notice i use the word 'and' alot.
blame it on my oh so limited vocabulary

2006-09-19T19:03:00.000+08:00

english oral today. got mrs yusof so it wasnt that bad i guess. haha ohoh and while i was reading the passage, a FREAKING GRASSHOPPER JUMPED ONTO MY PAPER OUTTA NOWHERE! i swear, it was a grasshopper. nasty bright green looking cockroaches. they do look like cockroaches okay! so i was happily reading and i suddenly went OMG. actually, i didnt just go omg, i screamed omg. hahaa it was the SHOCK. and stared at the green thingy. IT WAS THIS SIZE! *opens my arms wide* ok maybe it wasnt THAT big but it was big.

I HATE EXAMS.

and i miss mrs mccully's custard thingy ):

2006-09-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL !
ILOVEYOU <3

AND I LOVE THE WEATHER TODAY TOO. you know, i wish i was still five, then i'd run down in the rain to the playground with claire [god i havent seen her in ages] and jump around in the puddles singing 'rain rain go away'. i need that. i really really do.

i wonder what's gonna happen to all of us when we die. will we be born again and relive the life we're having? or are we really going to heaven? what if heaven's just some made up fantasy of everyone's? maybe this IS heaven.and we've all gone through purgatory (or however you spell it) and the 'earth' that we think we're living in is actually just a place far worse than this. ohgod, why am i thinking of all this? I JUST GOT CONFIRMED. okay enough.

okay ANYWAY woke up at eight, went back to sleep and the warning alarm thingy at 1205 just had to wake me up. pffft. and no, i didnt go to school today, heh but i doubt kunna will notice anyhow. it's one now. i've officially wasted my whole morning doing absolutely nothing. yay me.

and I JUST HAD HALF A TUB OF haagen-dazs CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM.
OH THE GUILT.

ANTHEM OF OUR DYING DAY by story of the year.
you HAVE to listen to that song.

2006-09-13T19:33:00.000+08:00

no one knows,
i ll start pretending too, with all the pasted smiles and laughs.
and when i need to let it all out,
i ll just talk to my teddy bear. that huge one.

i want to forget the world
& live in my own little wonderland
but God wouldnt let me.

fuck.

2006-09-12T19:03:00.000+08:00

IM CONFIRMED :D thanks for all the flowers yall !
sleptover at christang's. it was fun i guess, didnt sleep till seven in the morning. im majorly corrupted now, special thanks to gran,jon and andrew. then there was those interesting talks on the rooftop. pool. the stupid sha game. hahaha and so on.

party at paul's was kickass, i think, except for the first and last part. i'd just like to thank antonia, marissa,nic,kath,vic,alyssa and joy. getting people into the pool was fun. hahah rene licking his armpit got everyone groced out. marissa and antonia got me into the pool! and i got marissa in and then eventually almost everyone got dunked, except for those who hid in the toilet! oh and chris teo offered me his shirt for god knows what reason. haha. and that was basically it, getting people into the pool, and watching the guys get their ass kicked by athena in that clapping game thing.

DEAREST ANTONIA TAN MING HUI,
cheer up okay? it's not the end of the world, so dont worry so much. whatever it is, things will get better. i know it's really hard to sometimes but hey, that's life for us. sucks huh. & im sorry if sitting in front of you and asking if you were okay made you break down and cry. hahaha but it made you feel better after letting it all out? maybe not all but ANYHOWS, smile okay.

2006-09-06T10:32:00.000+08:00

so i've found what to wear for confi. after trying it on again this morning, i think the skirt's a little too short and the top a little too.. nevermind. sighhhh ok i dont care, im just gonna wear it. i'm not gonna walk through the whole of orchard road, suntec city, citylink, rafflescity and marina square again just to look for something else that's more suitable. cos seriously, that's exactly what ant and i did yesterday. haha six hours of non stop walking. anyway THANKS ANT for following me all the way back to that shop to get the top (:

screwed up chinese oral on monday. i think the teacher talked more than me luh. ohwells. shopped for grace's present with kath and gervin after. IM SURE GRACE WILL LOVE IT. hahahahaah & yeah, that's exactly how late her present is. tsk. ohoh! everyone should go try fried marsbars. they're damn nice!

finalyears are in a month's time.
ohmyohmyohmyohmyohmyohmy!

=O

2006-09-02T01:34:00.000+08:00

it's 2am now & i cant sleeeep.

you know what?
i can say "KWAMBINGBANGBONGPOOFGAHBOOMBOOMBOOMCHIANG" really really quickly
:D

time really flies man. 8 more days!

2006-08-30T17:30:00.000+08:00

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race.
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.

2006-08-28T18:48:00.000+08:00

I AM GOING TO SIT DOWN AND MUG FOR THE CHEM TEST TMR.

2006-08-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

school's been a drag. it's 10pm and the only thing i've memorised so far for the physics test tmr is that a wave is a phenomenon in which energy is transfered through vibrations. no shit man. even though i ~~ponned~~ school on wednesday, i didnt exactly have the mood to study physics. maybe if everyone went to school to play and learn how to run around like mad cows, i'd like school. but nooooo, the world has to be created in sucha way that everyone has to waste their youth on going to school to study _ stuffs. stupid ________________!

Pick the month you were born:
January----- I kicked
February----- I loved
March----- I smoked
April----- I dry humped
May----- I choked on
June----- I murdered
July----- I did the Macarena with
August----- I had lunch with
September----- I danced with
October----- I sang to
November----- I yelled at
December----- I ran over

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1------- a birdbath
2------- a monster
3------- a phone
4------- a fork
5------- a Mexican
6------- a gangster
7------- my cell phone
8------- my dog
9------- my best friends boyfriend
10------ my neighbor
11------- my science teacher
12------- a banana
13------- a fireman
14------- a stuffed animal
15------- a goat
16------- a pickle
17------- your mom
18------- a spoon
19------- myself
20------- a baseball bat
21------- a ninja
22----- a model
23------- a noodle
24------- a squirrel
25------- a football player
26------- my sister
27------- my brother
28------- an ipod
29------ a permanent marker
30------- a llama
31------- a homeless guy

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
White------because I'm cool like that.
Black-------because that's how I roll.
Pink--------because I'm NOT a homosexual
Red--------because the voices told me to do so
Blue--------because I'm sexy and I do what I want
Green-----because I hate myself.
Purple-----because I'm cool.
Gray-------because I was drunk.
Yellow-----because someone offered me1,000,000> dollars.
Orange----because I hate my family.
Brown-----because I was high.
Other------because I'm a ninja.
None-------because I can't control myself.

i murdered myself because im cool like that.
hah.

2006-08-23T13:42:00.000+08:00

tired, stressed, sick, melancholic
beat that.

i want to migrate. so there.

anyway,

amaths lesson was damn funny. just looking at what was written on that piece of paper made vanessa and i laugh till we cried. like literally, there were tears in both our eyes. vic was all whasofunny! & it wouldnt be funny if i explain it here so i shant bother.

2006-08-20T18:56:00.000+08:00

Feeling sorrow
for all the things you had to steal and borrow.
Bring back the days we had before tomorrow
relapse and then collapse into yourself once more.

2006-08-19T11:04:00.000+08:00

ohyay it's the weekends.

ohoh listen to this.
WHERE DO BEES GO TO THE TOILET?
BP STATION! hahahaha
bee-pee. get it?

/edit 9pm.

i was watching singapore idol just now with my grandma and it's so saaad. its the repeat. the one joahkim cried cos rahimah got out. and i started tearing! hahaha luckily my grandma didnt see me cry. so embarassing. talking about my grandma, i think she's wants to be my sponsor. HOW?

AND, my mum just told me there's a problem with my weighing scale. SHE SAYS ITS SPOILT. like if you weigh yourself, you're two kg lighter than you actually are. TWO KG. #(* &^(^&)*^&)(*?!

dyou know what this means?

2006-08-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

so i cut my hair today. but then again, no one at home noticed. studied with ant before that. and omggg. we were still craving for pohpiah so both of us shared like THREE POHPIAHS!

chem and lit test tmr & i've only studied three or the five reasons macbeth gave the murderers to kill banquo. thats all. and the test is like from act2scene2 to act3scene3? imsodead.
no, i havent studied for chem. fwahhh

ohoh and after cutting my hair i had to pay right. decided to pay with my card cos i only had 20cents with me then. & i typed in the wrong code THREE TIMES. THREE! hahahha i dont know whaaat i was thinking. my code is actually someone(s)'s birthday and i got that someone's birthday mixed up with another person's birthday and well yeah. you get the picture. it's just really coincidental that it was THOSE two(three) people's birthday i got mixed up with.

my mum's on this diet & she lost three kg in three days. something that im completely incapable of now. SIGH
the running 10 rounds round the track every morning dont seem too be working! probably cos of my addiction to oreo muffins! sighhh why cant i be addicted to healthier and less fattening stuff. like vegetables (ew) okay that's it. IM GOING ON AN ALL VEGETABLE DIET AS OF NEXT WEEK. watch me.

dear kathleen (& sometimes alyssa)
STOP WITH THE JAGUARS ALREADY! HAHAH. i have this feeling you two will share the same husband in the future. mrs kc and mrs ac. awwwwww

2006-08-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATHENA, GRACE AND STEPHANIE! <3

juicy got the tiramisu cake for grace & steph. sang happy birthday during recess and im oh so proud to say that kathleen and MYSELF did an extremely gooood job in smashing the cake in grace's face. hahaaha anyway the cake was damn nice.
got back our emaths papers today. i got lower than vicky ):
THEN, had to stay back in school to do the stupid formal writing. I JUST DONT SEE WHY I CANT HAND IT IN TMR MORNING. and just because i ask her for a mere ONE DAY extension, she demands to know what i did during the weekends. *)#&(*%&?! she went like "what were you doing during the weekends?what time does your tuition start? " in that pressurizing scary pissy tone. aiya but whatever la. at least i've done it.
sorry for pang-sehing you today gervin! SORRY!
Amaths tuition after. tuna and corn sandwiches! MY FAV :D
i dont like amaths now. i hate the topics. and there's a test tmr. mrs mccully was telling us about this extremely rich gay couple. and yeah. they probably had too much chicken when they were young. HAHA. one of marissa's and antonia's weird theories. well, it does make sense.

-thanks for refreshing my memory.
I STILL HATE YOU
this is all your fault

i should've known.

2006-08-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

2006-08-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

ohman. this is bad.
im addicted to cheezels
not that i just discovered they existed or anything but my dad bought this HUGE pack of cheeezels. oh inside the huge pack are ten small packets so yeah. i've eaten FOUR. and i had three packets yesterday. that makes seven.

S-E-V-E-N-! (normal people would usually have one packet a day)

omggg. imagine the amount of calories.

ok there're 280cal in one packet

seven packets=1960 calories.

OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NOOOOOOOO!!

(@^*&^(*&%^*(%&^%(*&$^(*&^(*%&!

someone just shoot me now.

anyhows, I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TMRRR. they should make it a HOLIDAY next year or sth. there's no point. ONE DAY wouldnt make a difference would it.

ohyeah, did amaths tuition homework with ant today. coffeebean. well, im just glad its more than 50% done.

&! i think ant's brain went haywire after about 2hours of doing amaths.

SHE THOUGHT:

(positive) 1 x (positive) 2 = NEGATIVE 2 ????!!!!!

and was soooooo confident about it. we argued for what-felt-like 3minutes before she actually realised.

POHPIAH IS BEST WITHOUT CHILLI

you can trust me on that one.

dang. my dad is sooo against me skipping school for the wrong reasons. so i guess it's

SIX AM tmr morning.

though i usually end up waking up at 630.. but that's still freaking early!

nooooooooooooooooooo.

i feel-

*(sings) everybody loves KUNGFU FIGHTING! *

2006-08-09T14:04:00.000+08:00

i wish i were.

SO SHOOT ME.

2006-08-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

26/50 for CHINESE test.
I PASSED!
okay maybe i shouldnt be so proud of it.

haven was nice, crashed at mar's after
watched some movie for cath on sunday
so it wasnt as boring.
then went to support alyssa tan shu ning at the istana
HAD TO WALK SOOOOOOO FAR UP!
sigh the things i do for my friends

trained today
well sort of

im out.

2006-08-05T12:25:00.000+08:00

which is worse?
saying something and wishing you hadnt?
or saying nothing and wishing you had?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEOW! <33
celebrated teow's birthday yesterday at marche with
amanda,dilmeet,sarah,antonia,marissa,hannah,vanessa,clara
YAY. it was funn catching up :D

went to christang's house with marissa after
hahaha rene and chris were like singing
they sang quite a few songs &
it was sooooo funny i tell you.

yep.
anyway im just glad this week's over
only two days of school next week! whoooots.

2006-08-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

bottomline-

I HATE YOU.
you didnt have to do that.
~~go burn in hell~~
i still hate you!

why cant we all live in happily ever after?
life's no fairytale after all.

2006-08-02T18:45:00.000+08:00

emaths and lit test tmr
& i am oh-so-unprepared please
PLUS, the very smart me forgot to bring home my emaths textbook.

BUT, yifen's gonna help me with trigo later :D
which is one of the reasons why i love my house.
everyone seems to live a doorstep away.

ohyes,
i think i tore my hamstring during training
and i NEARLY got my ankle twisted.
actually what they say is true to a certain extent-
badminton's a baaad sport.

2006-07-31T19:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FIFTEEEEEENTH KATHLEEN! I LOVE YOU HEN DUO HEN DUO! woaini!

miss tan's farewell performance thing was so sad. esp when she was giving us the talk, and the video, and the cake and.. it was just so SAD and touching that i cried. and all the people around me so insensitive la! and kathleen was playing with someone's wallet. =/ hahahhaha

training wasnt that bad.

roar.

2006-07-29T20:53:00.000+08:00

face down by the red jumpsuit apparatus

delifrance, town, clothes, walking, eating, christang's house.
those pretty much made today.
ohyes, and i've found what im gonna wear on confirmation! i think

sighhhhh
i was this close!

2006-07-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

I AM NOT CRAZY OVER JAGUARS

omg. practically SEVEN periods of MATHS today
triple amaths, emaths, double physics
nearly died.

training after
we all took cab to yck
oh & they took my phone and hid it
i kinda knew they did cos it was SO YESTER-YEAR!
hahhhaha which reminds me of the hiding of wallets,stealing of letters,pulling up of skirts, eating in class, going to toilets in between lessons to skip class...
I MISS THOSE ):

oh & i need to get a LONG WHITE SKIRT for confirmation
cos kath,vic and za all say the one that i have is too short
but ant said it wasnt. ahwells.
RAR

~~I SHALL GO ON A FRUIT & VEGETABLE DIET~~
i give up

2006-07-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

it's one of those i-feel-so-fat-but-i-cant-stop-eating days
sigh.

2006-07-25T16:14:00.000+08:00

ITS SO NOT AN OBSSESION! (:

victoria tan has SHARP EYES man.
blame it on the tables & chairs being so close together in that classroom.
pfffft! INVASION OF MY PRIVACY PLEASE! hahahha
ahwells, I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE ANYWAY.
heard that alyssa and kathleen?
i'm more innocent than yall think i am!
:D

i'm gonna start paying attention during chinese now.
HOHO.

singing during maths keeps me awake.
honest!

2006-07-24T18:52:00.000+08:00

YOU'RE OVERATED.

im so so so so so so prouda myself.
i actually went for training today
YES i did. hard to believe, i know.

anyway it wasnt as bad as i thought it was gonna be la
but i think i put on all the calories i lost alr
a chocolate muffin and the other muffin with oreos on top which is sooo goood.
oh & one of the sec ones brought PIZZA AND PEPSI. like she ordered i think
cant remember her name but yeah she's nice
she gave everyone pizzas!

sigh

OH OH! JOWEEN SAID I LOST WEIGHT!
& the last time i saw her was..
quite a long time ago. hahha

2006-07-23T18:43:00.000+08:00

im feeling super random and weird today.
hahaa yeah so if i ask you random questions that you dont understand,
you know why. ahhahaa

I THINK JAGUARS ARE COOL
no kathleen, its not what you're thinking. HAHAHA

i dont wanna go to school tmrrr ):
im feel so behind
probably cos i've havent been paying attention AT ALL in school
& i mean literally. my mind just happens to be forever in dreamland.
hahha take last week's chinese for example. lao shi was teaching,
half the class's heads were on the table sleeping
and she just continued teaching! hilarious man.
wokay. I AM GOING TO SLEEP AT 10PM TODAY.
though i ll most likely end up lying in bed starring into space for at least one hour till i finally go to babaland..
BUT if that happens, i ll count sheep.
which should make the process alot shorter if you get what i mean.

okay it's last minute homework for now.
which i ll take forever to complete cos
I'VE STILL GOT TONNNS LEFT.

okay im contradicting myself again.
#&%^*%*#&!?

2006-07-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

/edit 1025PM ; (after receiving the phone call)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(#*%^&Q*(&#%*(^%(*Q&*(!!!!!!!!
HAHAHA im gonna go crazy soon

I SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SHOULD'VE GONE FOR IT

RAR!

pierced ears :DDDDDDD
I CAN JUST IMAGINE!
it must've been freaking hot there la.
HAHA

im feeling soo nfkajdsgnfkargmaeerjkan now.
sighhhhh. hahahaha

P.S this post wasnt meant to be understood.

2006-07-21T18:10:00.000+08:00

its finally friday.
FINALLY

whoooopieyayyahhh.
i'm alyssa's idol
WORSHIP ME!

imout.

2006-07-19T16:59:00.000+08:00

omg. chem lesson was super hilarious! HAHAHA though i wasnt exactly mentally there for the last half an hour of the lesson. hahah mrs tay can be sooo funny sometimes. DOUBLE physics wasnt that bad after all. hhaha we were just given worksheets to do so vanessa money aline alyssa and me were just talking&laughing. about..INTERESTING STUFF. i think ms syd got a lil irritated. AHWELLS. ohoh & i ate like A HELL LOT during recess. those oreo muffins are niceeee. I SHALL GO SWIMMING NOW.

battle of the bands, ij drama night or CHINESEtuition?
sigh decisions, decisions.

ohyeah watched pirates of the carribean yesterday with jon,chris teo & tang. jon & chris were late so they both owe me drinks. HAH. got the tickets and tang paid for us. went to the food court after. jon and chris were like throwing fries at each other. hahaha. anyhows fernando torres DOES NOT look sisi ! anyway the movie wasnt as nice as i thought it would be. ohyes, there was this part of the show when i got a shock. hahaha but i dont think my "scream" was that loud! and i didnt move THAT much either! pffft hahaa took cab with all of them back. and i think my dad suspected sth when i came back. hahaha but thank god he was in a happy mood. yeah that's about everything.

oh crap. i better start on my volcano and fold mountains mind maps.
AND THOSE FIFTEEN GEOG ARTICLES. ahhhhh. i've only got five by the way.
I NEED DONATIONS PLEASE.

2006-07-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

SOOOOOO much to do,
so little time.

& here i am.
i suppose this is what they call lang fei shi jian.
it's chinese you dope.
I STUDIED FOR CHINESE TING XIE TODAY!
hahaha

2006-07-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday
i got locked inside my house toilet. apparently there was sth wrong with the door knob and i didnt know. hahha it was hilarious la. was stuck inside for what felt like forever. oh and it didnt just happen once by the way. TWICE. hahaha dont ask how. the first time was like around lunch. my brothers and maid were practically banging the door for like half an hour? or maybe longer. so i just sat inside and waited :\ then i was so happy when i got out. dont know how my maid did it. fell asleep till doug called. hahaha so i wanted to bath right. i used the fuggin SAME toilet and i only remembered that there was a problem with the door knob AFTER i closed the freaking door. wtf! hahha i think i was in there for like damn long la. my dad came back from the airport & i was still stuck inside so he helped. after what seemed like forever, the door finally opened. & yeah. SO, me and ant were like two hours late for christang's house. haha SORRY! yeah we were supposed to study but well, i almost won antonia while playing pool. ALMOST. hahha anyway tang's house spells fun (:

today

went for 815. i really meant to pay attention to the priest today but my mind kept drifting. hahaha ohwells. I WILL NEXT WEEK. i'll drink coffee. cat was boringggg. was home the wholeeeee day today. juls&natasha with their parents came again. those from australia..yeah they'll be going back to aussie soon i think.. yeah so they all went to watch movie and everything. didnt go. so yep.

ahhhh training tmr.
im scared :yes im going.
hahaha
my stamina totally sucks now
i went swimming just now
and yeah. i can still remember in sec one..
i could swim 24laps non stop
only swam FIVE pathatic laps just now by the way
THATS how bad it is.
diediedie.

did i mention how much chocolate i ate today?
AND cake!

2006-07-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

gemini.

Dominating characteristics
Analytical & capable of making quick decisions.
Have the capacity to adapt to any circumstance.
Quick to adapt innovations.
Always easy going and good humoured.
More governed by mind than emotions.

Character Analysis
The star Gemini is symbolized by twin children the Castor and Pollux of Roman mythology. It is an airy sign, ruled by the planet Mercury. They are very intelligent. They can penetrate deep into the root of any matter and analyse them. They also display a dual character. At one time they are full of energy and enthusiasm, but before long a sudden change comes over them and they become cold and lethargic. In their relations with friends they are most undependable. Sometimes they insist that something is right when it is completely wrong. They imbibe things so fast that at times they miss out many important and critical details which are very essential. Old conventional ways bore them. They are always on the look out for new methods and ways of doing things. They are very clever in inventing things. A well developed Gemini possess artistic talent of high order.

HAHA
well, it's true to a certain extent isnt it?

IM CRAVING FOR CHEEEEEEESE FRIES.
cheesefries are goood. :D

&i'm dreading tuition later.
chinese.
i hate.

dearest kathleen&gervin,
TAKE CARE IN CHINA.
i'll miss you guys ):
not like you two will read this anytime soon but
aiya
just have fun alright.

CHINESE LESSONS IN SCHOOL ARE GONNA BE EVEN MORE BORING AS IT ALREADY IS FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS
hahahaa

i'm out.

2006-07-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

UPS & DOWNS;
= today.

dont ask me, i dont know what's happening either.

folding hearts with straws are fun

school was alright i guess.
i actually paid attention to the guy during assembly
it's so sad.
well that's life isnt it?

tuition was cancelled.
saw quite a number of people at the swimming finals

~~& the clock goes~~ TICK TOCK, TICK TOCK, TICK TOCK (((((((:
hahahaha
~~i'm still in the process of melting.~~
in my dreams.

somehow, i just knew it was too good to be true.
hahaahhaa
BUT IT'S OKAY.
i'm happy

she's miss america,
& i'm just the girl next door

2006-07-11T17:33:00.000+08:00

i never thought it'd be this hard to say sorry;
actually this is much more about saying sorry.
i know the more i delay, the worser the freaking problem will become..
but HOW?
deep inside i want to. but..
~~fuck~~ pride.

okay. think lollipops germaine.

towned with kat today after school :D
i got a GREEEN TIE! hahaha
ohyeah.
GUESS WHO I SAW! omgggggggggggg.
K.B.
that sure brought back the memories.
hahah..

ohyes. THANKS KATHLEEN. for the present <3

school been okay.
slept through the whole of physics just now.
monday was the best.
two free periods of non-stop talking
hahaha

I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go

2006-07-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head. After that tag at least 5 people to do this

1 antonia
2 sarah
3 chris tang
4 marissa
5 nick
6 alyssa
7 kathleen
8 jonlim
9 nicole
10 doug
11 merrill

- How did you meet 10?
doug : church. hahah

- What would you do if you never met 2?
noooooooo. i'll dieeee. hahha i wouldnt have a reason to see ticktock. HAHAHA.

- What would you do if 9 and 11 dated?
nicole and merrill: HAHAHAH. possible?

- Do you like 7?
kathleen: mmHmm! I LOVE HER TO BITS :DDD

- Would 5 and 6 make a good couple?
alyssa and nick: NOOOOOOO!

- Describe 3.
chris: nice person (:

- Do you think 8 is attractive;
jonlim: I KNOW WHO THINKS SO!

- Tell me something about 2.;
HER CHOCOLATE CAKE ROCKS.

- Do you know any of 4's family?
marissa: yeahhh. her mummy, her daddy, her grandma, her cute lil cousins!

- Whats 5's favourite things?
nick: shirts from new urban male? hahaha

- What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you?
chris tang: HAHAHA omgggg. i dont know! never really thought of that.

- What language does 6 speak?
alyssa: english, chinese- HIGHER chinese.. she speaks LOUD. hahahhaah

- Who is 9 going out with?
HAHAH i think i know! *****

- How old is 8 now?
14?

- When was the last time you talked to 1?
a minute ago.

- What is 2's favourite band/singer?
she like many songs of different artists :/

- Would you ever date 7?
uhh. IM STRAIGHT PLEASE.

- Would you ever date 11?
hahaha never thought of that.

- Have you ever seen 2 naked?
uh NO! hahahaha. REMEMEBER IN SEC 2?! hahahahaha ok inside joke.

People whom you want to pass this on :
antonia, cheryl, marissa, kathleen, nicole

2006-07-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

MY DADDY GOT ME A NANO!
didnt see that coming.
apparently he got it a long time ago
was waiting for my "plan"
he and his plans..
:DDD
YAYYYY.

2006-07-09T17:29:00.000+08:00

i can feel happy,sad,angry,hyper,irritated,depressed,excited etc all in 12hours.
that's been the last two days for me.
& it sucks.
talk about mood swings
anyway it's kinda hard to explain why
it's like the little little things all add up.

take yesterday for example:

dragged myself out of bed at 9am plus (slept at two)
was supposed to be in school by EIGHT so yeah
i thought i was late? rushed to school..
only tricia was there! wth. everyone overslept.
i dont even see the need of doing up the class please.

dad was kinda pissed when he fetched me
cos he waited quite long till i came out.
my fault i guess

great morning huh.

did the confirmation booklet thing when i came back
& A BIT of elearning.

my parents had to go to church for gabriel's first communion or confession talk
i somehow ended up attending saturday's cat class. hahaa
SATURDAY'S CAT CLASS SPELLS BORING. but it would've been worse without kat & nic.
but singing the hyms were funny cos no one was even singing! everyone was just starring at their paper. lol

went for 6pm mass with my family & kathleen(:
me and kat ended up talking la. haha halfway we went out of church and we just sat at the stairs there.

then my parents & brothers wanted to leave after communion, i didnt want to
i mean i didnt even listen during mass. the least i could do was stay till the end?
well it didnt make a difference in the end
cos our car was blocked my other cars so couldnt get out
that made me pissed.

so i was damnn dao and silent during dinner
which was very very unlike me when having dinner with my family
i swear this was the first time.
i think i know why i was so unhappy though. HAH.

and after dinner my dad drove us to the botanical gardens.
like wth.
hahaha he said we should go for a walk
but in the end he just drove back

came back home
mum came into my room and asked me why i was so sad
truth is, i didnt really know why
maybe i do but just dont wanna admit it.
so anyway i just made up some crap about a whole pile of unfinished homework

somehow being online sorta distracted me..
probably cos of the happy people i was talking to
so them being happy made me happy too i guess
hahaha

that was till my mum came.
she was so pissed la
cos i wasnt doing my work?
& was like all depressed just now cos i wasnt doing my work
at least, that's what she thought.
so yeah i wasnt very happy AGAIN

couldnt sleep so i did my homework
with my ipod
music distracts me too

slept at TWO.

seeeee. this is badd
today was actually worse
~~i cried in the car.~~
okay nevermind.
i'm sure it'll all go away

MISUNDERSTANGS.
that's what made her cry.

2006-07-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

I've found my place;
& this place is far away from you.

2006-07-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

standing on the rooftops;
everybody scream your heart out
love that song.

went for the sji concert thing
with ant nic rah brian gran.
nic sat with her friend. hahaha
but we were all kinda in the same row la
and nic's friend happened to be with yvan
small world i guess.
so after the concert we all went to eat
no one could decide where to eat.
i dont see nothing wrong with jwalking. lol
ended up at newton
I FREAKING ATE SO MUCH.
sighhh. howwwww? im gonna be fat ):

~~oh great.~~
its 145am and i just recieved a msg
reminding me that i have to be in school at EIGHT IN THE MORNING
fcuk. i dont wanna.
why does the fcuking class need to be done up anyway
every class looks the same to me
other classes cant even be bothered
i dont see why we should
GRAHHH.
I WANT MY BEAUTY SLEEP

>:(

2006-07-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

The whole world is watching with one blank stare.
I can just sense this feeling of ill repair.
Like no one's heart is full enough to keep away this fear.
And no one's heart is strong enough to fix what happened here.

fcuk, i shouldnt have told anyone.
this is getting far too complicated.

it's all gone grey.

2006-07-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

happy birthday xinpeii! ((:

today passed by quickly, ant came over after school for awhile then
studied at KAP , wouldnt exactly call it studying though.
heh. the more correct term would be stoning & talking & eating.

GOOD LUCK TO PEOPLE SWIMMING TMR! (:
ticktock! that's esp to ticktock. HAHAHA :D

Maybe a greater thing will happen
Maybe all will see
Maybe our love will catch like fire
As it burns through me

2006-07-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

it's 11 more weeks to english exam.
dang.

i've been doing absolutely nothing today
besides eating.

food is addictive.

there's training tmr!
nooooo
I DONT WANT.
i reallyreallyreallyreally dont.
SIGHHHHH.

just for the record
The weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of
A. Indifference and
B. Disinterest in what the say

2006-07-03T18:49:00.000+08:00

today isnt a happy day ):
i dont like today.
been thinking alot about everything
how i should have done this & shouldnt have done that..
maybe it's mood swings
&i've been eating plenty
you have no idea how much chocolate there is in my house now
FROM PERTH!
fcuk.
it's grapes and water tmr.

well anyhow,
doing quizes are good distractions.
YAY

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.

The purpose of your life: showing love to other people

Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah

Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

Your Life Path Number is 9

Your purpose in life is to make the world better

You are very socially conscious and a total idealist.

You think there are many things wrong with the world, and you want to fix them.

You have a big idea of how to world could be, and you'll sacrifice almost anything to work towards this dream.

In love, you can easily see the beauty in someone else. And you never cling too tightly.

You are capable of great love, but it's hard for you to focus your love on one person or relationship.

You have a lot of outward focus, and you tend to blame the world for your failures.

You are often disappointed by the realities of life - it's hard for you to accept the shortcomings of the world.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent.
You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored.
You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts.
And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?